Fearless

(album: Make It Through Fall - 2018)

Yeah
Wake up, what the fuck that hurts, yeah I broke your heart, I'm the worst, I'm sorry
But my shoulder's torn and my heart feels worn, dunno what I'm gonna do about surgery
And you're not gonna listen, think I'm just bitching, guess there's no use pretending
There's a silver lining in this hurricane, pain on the way, whole world is ending

Wake up, what the fuck, that hurts, nerve block wore off and I can't stop crying
For five weeks oxy is in me and I can't quit, better believe I've been trying
Six months and you're fixed, that's a myth, been a year and I'm still in the ditch, such a mess
Act like I switched up, just pissed 18 months in it, still hurts to get dressed

I'm sorry for the dark that you can't see
And I'm sorry for the light that I can't bring
And I'm sorry if you're near me I scream and it seems that you see but you just can't hear me
I'm sorry if this song seems campy
And I'm sorry for the things that I can't be
And I'm sorry if you hear this, I couldn't be brave and I'll never be fearless

Now it's been a few years and I've shed a few tears, no relief for the weight on my back now
Buy an ounce looking so innocent, I'm trapping out my girl's mini-fridge, make it back now
Just to make a few bucks, I'm feeling like a chump, my music fucking sucks take it all down
Put it back the next week, people sleep but these words will kill me if I don't get them all out

Wake up, what the fuck, this song's blowing up, holy shit, this is it, people care now
My old life's gone but my new life spawned, now I'm on and I'm not gonna wear down
Life merging with dreams, I just want to feel free, I just want my art seen like a Rembrandt
On my way, we the wave, but my body's just pain and I'm tryna be brave but I can't

I'm sorry for the dark that you can't see
And I'm sorry for the light that I can't bring
And I'm sorry if you're near me I scream and it seems that you see but you just can't hear me
I'm sorry if this song seems campy
And I'm sorry for the things that I can't be
And I'm sorry if you hear this, I couldn't be brave and I'll never be fearless

I've got a lie tattooed on my side
It says I'll stay strong

I'm sorry for the dark that you can't see
And I'm sorry for the light that I can't bring
And I'm sorry if you hear this, I couldn't be brave