I Don't Wanna Have To Lie

(album: In Loving Memory Of When I Gave A Shit - 2016)

I don't wanna have to lie to everybody, about how I feel
I can't eat, can't sleep
I'm on my knees, praying for a miracle
It's all right, what you say, like a knife
I know you like the taste of blood
I love you, I hate you, I have you, I lose you,
I just want someone to love

I don't wanna have to lie to everybody
I just wanna light, I wanna smoke more cigarettes
You think that I like gettin hurt,
But I do it, I can't seem to help myself
I'm a big girl, but big girls get hurt too, and they cry
You think that I'm tough enough
But I know when you look at me right now, that all you can see is blood

I don't wanna have to lie to everybody, about how I feel
Waves of sadness, waves of grief
A river that feels like it'll never stop running
And all you can see is the lies,
I know it's all over my face
I can't change, I can't hide

I don't wanna have to lie to everybody, about how I feel, (ohh whoa ohh)
Don't wanna have to lie to everybody, about how I feel