Reflections

(album: Reflections - 2015)

Yeah, all of these songs that we create can't even scratch the surface
The reasons why we feel what we do why we write these verses
To be honest sometimes I don't even know why I'm writing
I feel I'm torn between good and evil and I am frightened
Sometimes I pray to god, sometimes I say I hate him
Shit everyday I feel I'm living in an ultimatum
Been a couple years since I been to a church on a Sunday
And I keep on saying that I'ma figure it all out one day
But I know that I'm lying, and I know that I have sinned
And I know that I have pushed away every one of my friends
And I know that I have rage, I release it with this pen
I make a song and pretend that everything all makes sense, ha
People tell me they feel it
But part me just doesn't
I ask myself would I write this shit if nobody loved it
Well I don't have the answer
And even if I did
I'd still run my mind in circles and say it all again

I'm walking through the life that I been given and I'm hoping that I make it alright
Looking in the mirror trying to find the man I am nobody is in sight
I'm taking the only road that I know and I'm just hoping it'll all be alright
And when I fade away I just hope that you understand everything is alright

So, I find it funny I can write a problem 20 times
In a different way with a different word and say a different rhyme
But I keep on fighting this pain that I'm feeling deep inside
Pissed that I wasted my time and I'm pissed that I lost my mind
But every night that I try to sleep it seems I cannot find
A minute of peace but when I decease will they believe I tried
I need a relief but turn on the TV cannot believe my eyes and
What do we see they make us believe all of the deceiving lies
This was not the way that you were raised
Disrespectful and misbehaving
Why are you leaving I don't understand
Fankly I really don't give a damn
Father, you raised me well but I am my own man
I make my own mistakes, I'm doing what I can
People tell me they feel it
But part me just doesn't
I ask myself would I write this shit if nobody loved it
Well I don't have the answer
But even if I did
I'd still run my mind in circles and say it all again

I'm walking through the life that I been given and I'm hoping that I make it alright
Looking in the mirror trying to find the man I am nobody is in sight
I'm taking the only road that I know and I'm just hoping it'll all be alright
And when I fade away I just hope that you understand everything is alright

And at the end of the day we all make a sacrifice
We have to make a decision we gotta roll the dice
Man I hope I rolled it right, but I know if I rolled it wrong
My friends and family will be there the day that I get home
And when I'm all alone, you can find me writing these
Raps that I put together fighting my uncertainty
But certainly I cannot serve everyone perfectly
To those who have not heard of me I hope I earn your courtesy
Trust me I know its tough, at times we all get down
I felt this way for years, I just record it now
Ain't for the fame I'm doing this to make my family proud
And the love I feel when I'm on a stage and they are screaming loud
So when you're the feeling struggle and you're feeling the pain
You gotta know you're not the only one feeling this way
Follow me by my voice, won't you just take my hand
We'll make it through together one day we will understand

I'm walking through the life that I been given and I'm hoping that I make it alright
Looking in the mirror trying to find the man I am nobody is in sight
I'm taking the only road that I know and I'm just hoping it'll all be alright
And when I fade away I just hope that you understand everything is alright