Why Do I

(album: Bad Habits - 2022)

Manipulations, your face keeps changing
It drives me crazy each time (each time, each time)
You keep tryna save it, I keep misplacing
All of my sanity but in reality I make the same mistakes and never leave

I get lost in my head, I don't want to
I've been drinking alone, I don't need to
My skin burns like cigarette paper
Misusing medications so I'm quick to lose my patience, yeah
I scream out

Why do I stay so busy loving someone other than myself?
Pledge allegiance to my future but my past keeps coming out
Walk on tightropes over cities too high up to hear your sounds
Why do I, do I, do I, why do I, do I, do I

Decision making, it's not my strength and
I gotta make one this time (this time, this time)
'Cause I'm complacent ('cause I'm complacent) and your mistakes I
I made them mine, taking all of my energy, feeding off of my instability

I get lost in my head, I don't want to
I've been drinking alone, I don't need to
My skin burns like cigarette paper
Fell so hard into the pavement, saw the imprint of my face and I
I scream out, out
Oh Lord, ah

Why do I stay so busy loving someone other than myself?
Pledge allegiance to my future but my past keeps coming out
Walk on tightropes over cities too high up to hear your sounds
Why do I, do I, do I, why do I, do I, do I

Why do I, do I, do I, why do I, do I, do I
Why do I, do I, do I, do I, d-do I

Eyes wide shut, wide open
Driving through the oceans
Found the darkest parts of me
For the first time, I can breathe
Running, still I'm floating
Speeding in slow motion
Found the darkest parts of me
For the first time, I can breathe

Why do I stay so busy loving someone other than myself?
Pledge allegiance to my future but my past keeps coming out
Walk on tightropes over cities too high up to hear your sounds
Why do I, do I, do I, why do I, do I, do I

Why do I, do I, do I, why do I, do I, do I
Why do I, do I, do I, do I, d-do I