Daffodils

(album: Don't Kiss Ur Friends - 2021)

I've been buying myself flowers, crowning myself my own king
Hoping I can blindly make it better by pretending I didn't destroy everything
Putting daffodils on fires and lavender on broken luck
I'm pretending I'm not drowning in my self destruct

In my own fuck ups
In everything that I've done
I'm tryna hold myself up now
Try hold myself up now

Don't lean on me
Please, don't lean on me
I'm not the one you need, I'm
Barely standing on my own
Legs holding me, I've outgrown
This weight I cannot hold, so don't
Don't lean on me

You've been begging me for pieces, things that I can't cut and paste
Stick you back together while I'm holding all these tethers
And I'm pulling myself in place

Putting daffodils on fires and lavender on broken luck
I'll keep pretending I'm not drowning in my self destruct
Can't find the words
To let you know I'm hurting
So I'll just let it all burn 'cause I can't fix the things that I'm burning

Don't lean on me
Please, don't lean on me
I'm not the one you need, I'm
Barely standing on my own
Legs holding me, I've outgrown
This weight I cannot hold, so don't
Don't lean on me

Look at me sitting here talking to myself
The only person I lean on is nobody else
Who would've thought
Who would've thought
That pushing everyone away wouldn't make him wanna stay?

So please
Please don't lean on me
Please don't lean
'Cause caring makes it worse and I don't wanna hurt, so

Don't lean on me
Please, please
Don't lean on me