Bad Timing

Try to hold myself together
So that no one ever sees me fall apart
I'm so scared of happy endings
That I never wanna let the story start

My self-love and my self-hate
And my best friends and my best day
And it's not great
But it's okay
'Cause talking leads to crying
Leads to both of us deciding
You should stay

The voices I've been hearing in my head
Are more believable than anything you've said
Don't tell me that it's bad timing
When it's really that you just stopped trying
If you wanna leave then go do you
Don't wanna hear another fake excuse
Don't tell me that it's bad timing

I've been staring at the ceiling
Going crazy and I'm losing track of time
All these seconds turn to minutes
Turn to hours but they'll never make you mine
(Never make you mine)

My self-love and my self-hate
Maybe want you back in the worst way
And it's not great
But it's okay
'Cause talking leads to crying
Leads to both of us deciding
You should stay

The voices I've been hearing in my head
Are more believable than anything you've said
Don't tell me that it's bad timing
When it's really that you just stopped trying
If you wanna leave then go do you
Don't wanna hear another fake excuse
Don't tell me that it's bad timing
'Cause you've always been the better liar
And you're lying to yourself it's true
Whatever happened to just me and you?
Don't tell me that it's bad timing