Solitude Freestyle

Half these dudes tryna get to me so they using you
Anything to try and push my buttons maybe loosen screws
They don't know it's none to push up on em jus a flight or two
Shoulda never let me grab a mic n get my vibe n tune
My baby mama keep trippin she got my vibe outta line
The way she keeps on tryna walk in and out of my life
I've never met a person who prioritizes my life
So I got used to keeping my darkest thoughts tucked inside
When people die they're often missed in the strangest ways
I don't gotta stress that I'm never getting replaced
If I leave then I left you only stand in my place
Shorty tryna forget me but then admits it's a phase
If you asked my opinion she treating this like a game
It's a shame you thinking bout me whether asleep or awake
Me I sleep fine I ain't had a bad dream in days
The shit I hallucinate these days don't contain yo face
How many times can I keep dying on the inside
And reaching out for help from the people to my side
Beggin with em pleading with emto help me revive
I still remember every time that you left me to die
How many more funerals in this life can I attend
How many bridges can I walk across or try to mend
I couldn't even find god at this point if I tried to repent
Doing all these drugs can't really be how my life gets spent
If you really loved me then you wouldn't always leave
You wouldn't turn around as soon as you get within reach
You'd listen to the same type of shit that you always preach
I just had to see you want problems and never peace