Demons

(アルバム： Still Lost - 2017)

All I ever wanted was to see
All I ever wanted was to breathe
I don't know what's happening to me
But I got some demons, demons
All I ever wanted was to see
All I ever wanted was to breathe
I don't know what's happening to me
But I got some, but I got some demons

Still inside of my room
Still don't know what I'm doing
Still lost, still tryna figure out what to do
You wanna talk? I'm not in the mood
I'm paralysed and I'm tryna...
You know what? Fuck it
I got so many issues I cannot explain it
I know what I'm feeling but I can't relay it
I'm so out of touch 'cause my derealisation
I don't feel alive and my mind it keeps racing
My anxiety's high and my life is outrageous
I'm not the same I can feel it I am changing
Can't get out of my head I've been barricaded
I'm losing my mind and I'm trying to save it, but can't
You ever been in a position?
Where you feel lost and nobody listens
Laying on your bed, staring at the ceiling
Eyes tearing up 'cause the way that you're feeling
I'm feeling like me, I have always been in it
Why does it feel like I've always been different?
Why does it feel like a part of me's missing?
Deep depression like how'd I fall in it?
Like where did I go wrong?
I haven't felt normal in so long
I'm closed off
My anxiety spikes every night so it makes it harder for me to doze off
That's real, so shut up and save it
The nerve of some of you to think I would fake it
If you think I'm happy you're sadly mistaken
I run from my demons when I should just face 'em, damn

All I ever wanted was to see
All I ever wanted was to breathe
I don't know what's happening to me
But I got some demons, demons
All I ever wanted was to see
All I ever wanted was to breathe
I don't know what's happening to me
But I got some, but I got some, demons

Still inside of my room
Still don't know what I'm doing
Still lost, still tryna figure out what to do
You think you know me? You don't
I have a dream you'll leave me alone
I have a nightmare of losing control
Fuck
In a bad place, what was the outcome?
Me stalling then dropping an album?
The world waiting on me but I'm waiting 'til I find myself so please don't ask me "How come it ain't here Sik? I need you to go ham"
Talk shit to me but you don't understand
Talking about "Sik if you don't drop shit I'mma straight dip, say bye to a fan"
Stressed out when music is my job
Lately it feels like I'm losing my mind
Sick of the fake smile when deep down
You can tell I got a lot going on
I've been hiding my feelings for too long
I never felt like I ever belonged
Its hard to say how I feel, so I keep it real and rap it in all of my songs, so
When it drops you got feel this
The definition of what real is
I am imperfect but that makes me perfect
I create my music from the pain I deal with
But I'm still lost, tryna find a way
Laying in bed, yeah I'm wide awake
I don't know what I'm tryna say
I guess what I'm tryna say is

All I ever wanted was to see
All I ever wanted was to breathe
I don't know what's happening to me
But I got some demons, demons
All I ever wanted was to see
All I ever wanted was to breathe
I don't know what's happening to me
But I got some, but I got some demons