Precious Illusions

(アルバム： Under Rug Swept - 2002)

You'll rescue me, right?
In the exact same way they never did
I'll be happy, right?
When your healing powers kick in
You'll complete me, right?
Then my life can finally begin
I'll be worthy, right?
Only when you realize the gem I am

But this won't work now the way it once did
And I won't keep it up even though I would love to
Once I know who I'm not then I'll know who I am
But I know I won't keep on playing the victim

These precious illusions in my head
Did not let me down when I was defenseless
And parting with them is like parting with invisible best friends

This ring will help me yet
As will you, knight in shining armor
This pill will help me yet
As will these boys gone through like water

But this won't work as well as the way it once did
Because I want to decide between survival and bliss
And though I know who I'm not I still don't know who I am
But I know I won't keep on playing the victim

These precious illusions in my head
Did not let me down when I was a kid
And parting with them is like parting with a childhood best friend

I've spent so long firmly looking outside me
I've spent so much time living in survival mode

This won't work now the way it once did
'Cause I want to decide between survival and bliss
Now I know who I'm not, I still don't know who I am
But I know I won't keep on playing the victim

These precious illusions in my head
Did not let me down when I was defenseless
And parting with them is like parting with invisible best friends
These precious illusions in my head
Did not let me down when I was a kid
And parting with them is like parting with a childhood best friend