Convince Myself

Told myself this time it would be different
And you and I could really make it work
That you're just really busy, you're not distant
And you're scared to commit, 'cause you've been hurt before
My friends are getting tired of me asking
About you, I can't help but bring it up
They say if it was real I wouldn't ask them how you feel
If they think that you might be the one

When will I realize
If he wanted to he would
Six words I never understood

It's not fair
Why can't I accept the fact that you don't care?
So I make up excuses, like your phone died, hit red lights
So that's why you're late
But you're acting different, you're acting strange
Why am I always so forgiving
Just to keep you mine when you don't give me reasons
To believe that you want me, I'm back on the shelf
I shouldn't have to, have to convince myself

Used to talk all day, you're getting slower (slower)
Haven't asked to see me in awhile
Or maybe I just overthink and that's the normal way of things
I question myself like a child (question myself like a child)

When will I realize
If he wanted to he would
Six words I never understood

It's not fair
Why can't I accept the fact that you don't care?
So I make up excuses, like your phone died, hit red lights
So that's why you're late
But you're acting different, you're acting strange
Why am I always so forgiving
Just to keep you mine when you don't give me reasons
To believe that you want me, I'm back on the shelf
I shouldn't have to, have to convince myself

So tired of being burdened with figuring you out
Oh, you're constantly changing, I constantly doubt
If any of it's real, if you even exist
Oh, you say that you care but I'm not convinced

Oh, it's not fair
Why can't I accept the fact that you don't care?
So I make up excuses, like your phone died, hit red lights
So that's why you're late
But you're acting different, you're acting strange
Why am I always so forgiving
Just to keep you mine when you don't give me reasons
To believe that you want me, I'm back on the shelf
I shouldn't have to, have to convince myself