Abdicating

I don't really feel like waiting...
I been down this road so many times still I can't find my way, no...
Feeling like the shine has faded
I've sat on this throne a thousand times
Now I might abdicate it

For the sake of my goodness
I tried to carry myself with grace and amazement
Understanding my roots will forever come from the basement
Made it to the highest of councils without arrangements
But all you ever saw was a logo beside my greatness, I bled my
Truth for as long as I could and then I
Covered up the illness that started eating my insides
The highs and the lows
Pressing pause on the end time
Feeling what's expected of me is to work and then die
Shit, guess I gotta be the one to make that change
Life ain't gonna sit around and wait for me to feed the flames
Thinkin bloodline
Thinkin what it means to make a name, and thinkin sunshine
And how we chase away the rain
With a drum line
Baby I believe that
You ain't gotta love me you just gotta let me be that
Person with a million mistakes, causing feedback
Keep the crown and thrown
I don't think I really need that
Let me go

I don't really feel like waiting
I been down this road so many times, still I can't find my way, no
Feeling like the shine has faded
I've sat on this throne a thousand times
Now I might abdicate it

For my own goodness' sake, I've been forsaken
A bitter pill is the only thing I'm tasting
A bit of time ain't the only thing it's taking
Like transplant patients, I'm getting sick of waiting tryna take the reins
But my hand's shaking handshake agreements, all just campaigning
Watching as they arrange the next coronation
While facing arraignments for abdicating
This sandcastle I built grain by grain
Tides changed, watched it all wash away in the rain
Caught between the left and right sides of my brain
Right now, all that's left is a splitting migraine
Heavy is the head of the king amongst mentors
Enemies and friends, frenemies and ends
Succession plans ain't ever recession proof
When the levy breaks, I'll be damned
Just one thing left to do

I don't really feel like waiting
I been down this road so many times, still I can't find my way, no
Feeling like the shine has faded
I've sat on this throne a thousand times
Now I might abdicate it