If I'm To Die

If I'm to die before I reach you
Please know I'm meant to love you till I did
If I'm to slip beneath a train meant to take me
Know that I believe that it was worth it
Tell my friends goodbye
Tell my almost ex-wife
That I loved her and left her too soon

Oh I hope to be holding you soon
Who knows what happens if I leave my room
Oh I'm scared that you'll know what to do...
If I'm to die before you

If I'm to die before I hold you
Know my arms were the worst off for it
If I'm set upon dried
From my room as I write
You won't be my last
Thought before I quit
Give my family love
I would watch from above
But I fear there is nothing but sleep

Oh I hope to be seeing you soon
Don't know what's out there
More fear I assume
Oh I'm scared that you'll know what to do...
If I'm to die before you

And if I'm to die before we spend a soft day
Know my final thoughts will be of regret
If I'm to drown in the deep sea that parts us
I once lived and loved, don't forget
Give my paintings to Alice
Tell all my good friends
That I didn't dare earn their respect

Oh I hope to be seeing you soon
I don't know what happens if I leave my room
Oh I'm scared that you'll know what to do

If I'm to die before you, if I'm to die before you