5 AM

(アルバム： Self Medicated - 2020)

It's 5 AM and I'm fucked up again
About to watch the sun come busting in
I swore that I would change when no one was around
Now I'm gasping for air like I'm about to drown
But here I go with that codeine in that white cup, with the cocaine on that counter
Swear to God I wasn't looking for no problems when I found them
It's a long way when you falling down, when you sitting on top of that mountain
'Cause I've been living life with no boundaries

I've been living with a heart that's full of coke
Ooh, I'm so out of control
I'm better off being alone
Ooh, I'm so out of control

It's 5 AM and I'm fucked up again
About to watch the sun come busting in
It's 5 AM and I'm fucked up again
About to watch the sun come busting in
I swore that I would change but I ain't changed yet (I'm fucked up)
I swore that I would change but I ain't changed yet

What up Jelly?
I'm still try'na learn all the do's and the don'ts
Abusive, I'm used to just losing control
What a loser, I choose to be stupid, I know
I'm using this music, it's sooth for the soul
It's hard for me to admit this is reality
I'm still try'na cope with this addictive personality
I've been feeling like the victim to insanity
That's probably why I keep on drinking through the agony
I start my day with a shot and a cigarette
I noticed if I'm drunk, then I'm not gonna get upset
Even had a dream that I lost all my inner-rest
Seven-day bender, all I gots like a mickey left
Now I gotta try to drown all the voices
Got a lot of problems but I'm bound to avoid 'em
Guess I gotta learn how to make choices
I'm drunk right now so it's pointless

I've been living with a heart that's full of coke
Ooh, I'm so out of control
I'm better off being alone
Ooh, I'm so out of control

It's 5 AM and I'm fucked up again
About to watch the sun come busting in
It's 5 AM and I'm fucked up again
About to watch the sun come busting in
I swore that I would change but I ain't changed yet (I'm fucked up)
I swore that I would change but I ain't changed yet

I know how it goes
Here I go with that double cup
Had a good thing, I'ma fuck it up
Couple old homies used to run with us
Got themselves jumped like Double Dutch
'Cause the [?] they been out of bounds
I been 'round the town, young and wyling out
Look at my accounts, know I'm really winning
But inside an ocean, in my mind I drown
I ain't wanna be all that
They wonder how I seen all that
Now I really been a fiend, ah yeah
Lost you 'cause the dream all bad
My problems solved when that bottle calls
Then my psycho runs like the the dryer
I take two hits to get higher
Look outside, the sun start to rising

It's 5 AM and I'm fucked up again
About to watch the sun come busting in
It's 5 AM and I'm fucked up again
About to watch the sun come busting in
I swore that I would change but I ain't changed yet (I'm fucked up)
I swore that I would change but I ain't changed yet (Swore that I would change but I ain't changed yet)