Failing On Purpose

Find my place everywhere
Yet somehow I can't pay my rent
Too clueless to be scared
Don't wanna think in future tense
I swear I'll lose my head
If I stop even for a second
Think of what ya said
Nothing worth is ever easy

Leave it all to me just to lose my way
I swear that I'm trying to change
Lose myself in the little things you say
This isn't worth it, we're failing on purpose

Still pocket all the hate
Despite the best of my intentions
Hard to overstate
How bad I needed this direction
All I do is care
Never content with my invention
Stuck in summers glare
Progress we won't even mention

Leave it all to me just to lose my way
I swear that I'm trying to change
Lose myself in the little things you say
This isn't worth it, we're failing on purpose

Too stubborn to let this go
Just tell me what I don't know
Drag me through the highs and lows
Make a mess of me
Just know that my checkered past
Leads me to think love won't last
Ideas that I can't grasp
Leave me bittersweet and homesick here
(And homesick here)

Leave it all to me just to lose my way
I swear that I'm trying to change
Lose myself in the little things you say
This isn't worth it, we're failing on purpose