Tysm

Da-da-da-da, da-da
I'm not really giving effort in this intro, to be honest
But, I hope you guys are having a good day

Is it bad that death is always on my motherfucking mind?
I can't ever seem help anyone, I'm a waste of time
Don't know what fuck to say, just don't know what words to rhyme
I've been trapped inside this state every day, every night
And they said I should change, but that's shit not fucking easy
And I'm looking at this gun and the trigger say "squeeze me"
I don't really give a fuck, fuck your fun, it will not please me
Light my arm on fucking fire just so I can fucking tease me
All black on my outfit, I do not fuck with color
And I'm always acting happy, please don't blow my fucking cover
Fuck all emotional connection, I don't want a lover
Wish that I could fucking fall off, I don't wanna be discovered
Okay, maybe that last line was a lie
I kinda wanna blow up, but not at the same time
I kinda wanna still wanna blow my brains out, fucking die
People say that I'm soft because I always seem to cry
I don't really give a fuck at this point, nigga, fuck you
Talking shit behind my back, but you want me to trust you
Get the fuck away, I don't wanna fucking touch you
You are not my bro, so do not call me bro dude
I hide all these emotions with a smile on my face
Think I'd rather be a villain, not a hero, don't need a cape
If you walked inside my mind I think you'd be inside a maze
Got these dark thoughts in my head, and people ask if I'm okay
Blah, blah, blah, what the fuck are you saying?
I don't wanna see a therapist, I think I'll stick to praying
If my parents hearing this, hi, I love you, I'm just saying
There's a lot of shit going on in my head I'm just fucking surveying
Jump down a hill, I will roll, I will fall
I don't know why people like me, I don't have no skill at all
I shouldn't even be this big, I should just be fucking small
I don't really give a fuck though, I'm just thankful for you all
If I didn't have songs I don't know where I would be
If I didn't have my friends I wouldn't be inside the scene
If I didn't have Antares I'd sound really shitty
Thank you all for the support, thank you all for helping me