Say This Once And Never Again

I got to get it off my chest while I can (Hah)
I got to get it off my chest while I can, be a man (Hah)

To my Momma I'ma ask you this once and once, I'm only
Understand me if I'm family then why I'm so lonely?
Homies gave me morals and values, you gave me whippings and punishment
Every word in this song won't take back none of it
Haunted and torn of the memories of you in the kitchen drunk
3 in the morning making your young son listen up
And all I learned, I ain't want to be nothing like you
Despite you send me to Catholic School, this about after school
It's pathological sent, you made the pain spread
And natural [?] y'all share the same bed
I'm the only kid on the block with a Momma
And a Momma with no father
Don't want to be botherered
With all of this regardless
The garbage of knowledge
Of ballers that raised me
The [?] of your baby, having a baby
Maybe if you spent less time doing a daily three
Maybe we would've had little Shaun up in that baby seat
From A-Z in my life, you like this rage in me
Occasionally the days we speak
Majorly turns to pain for me
Painfully the pen tortures the pad
At the same time my misfortunate Dad get tortured by crack
Imagine a mother telling her son if she could do it again, she wouldn't
And when we gets a foot in the door, she's saying ladies [?] behind his back just pushing
I don't need your support or your shove
All our orderless, love
You can keep your club, Newports and your grub
Gimme a minute, I need your love Momma
(I need your love you hear me? Listen)

If I can take it back I wouldn't, couldn't bite my tongue
Shouldn't have to run, this is me, never pretend
I'ma say this shit once and never again
I'ma say this shit once and never again
If I can take it back I wouldn't, couldn't bite my tongue
Shouldn't have to run, this is me, never pretend
I'ma say this shit once and never again
Shit I'ma say this shit once and never again

Ayo Sharonda to be honest, I'm lifeless
To raise them boys is priceless, despite my vices
Gun charges to fighting cops [?] a DUI
Ain't gon' lie, I thought about suicide
But then I remember what you said about me
That if I go shit you know you dead without me
I'm so stubborn and so simple-minded
Neglect what I need to respect and go confide in
Hiding from the truth because Proof is destroying you
That's why I hope to put another boy in you
The boy in blues (Shit) they want my freedom
But 1st, Dolo and Sicknotes, I gotta lead 'em
You gotta understand there's no love greater than ours
So I piss at The Moon so I find my way to the stars
Play with them bars, getting drunk in the night
Knock some sense into me, just punch with all your might, just fuck me for life

If I can take it back I wouldn't, couldn't bite my tongue
Shouldn't have to run, this is me, never pretend
I'ma say this shit once and never again (What!)
I'ma say this shit once and never again

This is P, this is me, listen please
Slow your mind and follow our history
Squares and the liquor to the love of them pills
On the road the only one I hold is this thug for real
Gotta thank you, shit you know you might've saved my life
So let me saves your back, just know I gave you light
On a dark corner with Clyde yo, hustling for pocket change
Derty Harry ain't just a bio and it's not for fame
The hottest flame is at home, sometimes we all gotta burn
Man and women vibes, we gotta learn
Even I, breathe and doubt with the love homie
Pat me down, you won't find no drugs on me
If I can to learn to love myself through you
You could learn to love yourself through Proof
Don't get all mushy, hugging me and shit
Just be my dawg forever nigga and thug through this bitch

If I can take it back I wouldn't, couldn't bite my tongue
Shouldn't have to run, this is me, never pretend
I'ma say this shit once and never again
I'ma say this shit once and never again
If I can take it back I wouldn't, couldn't bite my tongue
Shouldn't have to run, this is me, never pretend
I'ma say this shit once and never again
Shit I'ma say this shit once and never again

Fo' sho' though
Just know that I love y'all man, ya know what I'm saying?
I know I go through a lotta things in my life
And I take it out on my loved ones
'Cause y'all be there for me too, ya know what I'm saying?
And I appreciate that, love y'all, real life
I love you too 1st ([?] playing my song though, I love you)
I love you to Em
I love my D12 nigga, ya know what I'm saying?
Even though I don't express it, I'ma let you know now that I love y'all
Ya hear me?

If I can take it back I wouldn't, couldn't bite my tongue
Shouldn't have to run, this is me, never pretend
I'ma say this shit once and never again
Shit I'ma say this shit once and never again
If I can take it back I wouldn't, couldn't bite my tongue
Shouldn't have to run, this is me, never pretend
I'ma say this shit once and never again
'Cause I'ma say this shit once y'all and never again

Love y'all
Ain't everyday a man expresses his love right, haha
You say you how love pussy, how you love money
Ya know what I'm saying?
Well guess what? I love my niggas, I love my wife, I love my Momma
Ya know what I'm saying?
That make me a regular nigga, shit I love being regular nigga, ya hear me?
[?] with love though, peace!