Again

My heart is racing, I'm chasing
A feeling, this healing
My past is, catching up to me
Right through me
Poison, coursing
I'm dying, I'm lying
Never better, never better
I wish I was present
But it's so unpleasant
We're in this together
But I'm the exception
My best friend's a stranger
This isn't my nature
But I'm never better

I was thinking
I don't wanna be alone when I'm sinking
But it's all I've ever known, I was dreaming
That today would be the day
I would change but I woke up the same again
I was thinking
I don't wanna be alone when I'm sinking
But it's all I've ever known, I was dreaming
That today would be the day
I would change but I woke up the same again
And again
Oh, oh, oh, oh

Is it fucked up
If I pulled you in the way of my bad luck?
And I ask for you to stay, I don't have much
What's the point in holding on
Both my hands are going numb
Misunderstanding me, I should never let go
So why, I-I-I-I
Don't I, I-I-I-I
I ever wanna wake up
Little by little, I shoulda [?] break us
And even if I'm not in the way of your trust
And nevermind, [?] escape us

I was thinking
I don't wanna be alone when I'm sinking
But it's all I've ever known, I was dreaming
That today would be the day
I would change but I woke up the same again
I was thinking
I don't wanna be alone when I'm sinking
But it's all I've ever known, I was dreaming
That today would be the day
I would change but I woke up the same again

And again, and again, and again
It's all the same again
And again, and again
It's all the same again
And again, and again
It's all the same again
And again, and again
It's all the same again
It's all the same again

I was thinking
I don't wanna be alone when I'm sinking
But it's all I've ever known, I was dreaming
That today would be the day
I would change but I woke up the same again
I was thinking (I was thinkin')
I don't wanna be alone when I'm sinking (When I'm sinkin')
But it's all I've ever known, I was dreaming
That today would be the day
I would change but I woke up the same again
And again
Oh, oh, oh, oh

Oh, oh, oh, oh
It's all the same again
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh