Lately

Small eyes dry mouth can't speak
Pull the covers up and pray for sleep
But as the sun cuts through the curtains
Then the nerves begin to surface
It's always the same
The dull pain in my chest
So familiar yet I fear death
I know this feelings never worth it
I just can't resist the urges
I just can't resist the urges

I'll meet you later, you say
You deserve this baby
I'll have one more cause you made me
No I don't know me lately

Tell me that it's getting out of hand
Tell me you don't recognize the man before you
How could you do this shit again?
I don't know why you just pretend
You get by, when shots fly you're a soldier
But when I need you where's the gun to your holster?
Why can't I see you doing shit that you're supposed to?
You wonder why you're hurt again?

I'll meet you later, you say
You deserve this baby
I'll have one more cause you made me
No I don't know me lately

Please don't ask the question
Ima feel so stupid saying I don't know
Why I'm always like this
Only tell the truth into a microphone
I guess I'm scared of being unprepared
I never could say no
There's a better chance of me just caving in
Than being left alone