My Whole World

Am I the only one thinks that love isn't real
I keep my eyes closed and I write what I feel
I've had my heartbroken that'll never heal
The man in the mirror is the person I try to kill
I wanna do right but I always fail
I'm fortunate for the fact that I'm not in jail
When I talk about my life
To the moment that I inspire you
I'm coming from the bottom in dire need
Of a higher view
Any burden I can handle it myself
I'm motivated by the pain that I felt
And I wish I was depressed less
You see the girl of my dreams she exists
But we just haven't met yet

I swear to God that I'm fucking going insane
All I feel is pain cause I don't ever wanna change
It's my fault I'm the only one to blame
It's my confidence it's smothered
It's suffocating in shame
I look around me and all I see is death
So I'm taking full advantage of every breath that is left

I wanted to give up but I'll never tap out
Cause I lost friends to the point I lost count
I'm only here cause I chose to believe
You can call your girl a bitch
But I'm calling mine a queen
I think about you do you think about me
Sex hotter than sand down in South Beach
Biting down on my neck like it was a mouthpiece
I'm not like these other guys trust never doubt me
Mean mugging as I stand tough
If you're coming from nuthin
But now you're something put your hands up

I've overdosed six times
So understand that I'm just happy and grateful to be alive
They used to tell me that I didn't stand a chance
Now it's middle fingers up as I'm waving both hands
I just laugh now cause any change is possible
They thought they knew my game plan
But then I called an audible
I'm a miracle and so are you too
So never let em tell you what you can and can't do

We were so close then became rivalries
Get your ass over here now and come lie to me
Come lie to me and tell me what I mean to you
And tell me anything it doesn't matter if it's even true
Every time look I trust too easily
I'm used to the abandonment and everybody leaving me
Together one day the next day you left
Since you left I haven't got a single mother fucking text