My Very Self

Lost in a fairy tale
When life gets very stale
Wish I could breathe underwater
My son and daughter
Won't know this empty shell
These bones won't bury well
And I won't say fare thee well
I'm just gon' leave you all behind
I'm sick of hiding from me
My very self

I'm not like you or anyone else
At least I don't feel like it everyone tells me
That everyone's felt the way I felt
If that was the case how has everyone dealt?
I can't eat, just drink, no sleep
Which is funny 'cause I haven't been out bed in a week
No trace of weed, just me
Fall into another hole in my head and it's deep

I try to reach out, I climb out
[?] when my dad reach out
Real big smile, breathe in, breathe out
Try to be grateful, just stay faithful
Oh yeah, thank you, that shit helps
Don't sue me but it suits him well
Tryna find a new suit, high shoes and belt
Black on black on black I tried, I tried, I tried to get

Lost in a fairy tale
When life gets very stale
Wish I could breathe underwater
My son and daughter
Won't know this empty shell
These bones won't bury well
And I won't say fare thee well
I'm just gon' leave you all behind
I'm sick of hiding from me
My very self
My very self

Get up
Now I'm fed up
Life ain't set up for to keep my head up
Even when I feel better
No I never can let out these cards I was dealt
Imma have to just bet off
Drag myself to the shower
Even if I have to sit there for an hour
Trash piled up like a tower
Cans from the sauce
Plates and I forgot I had flowers
Shit

I gotta quit the drinking
Think I'm seeing the beacon
You know it's one thing to do
Another thing to speak it
If I get these shakes
Then Imma tap the brakes
I know it won't be easy
But I have to cease it
Break the cycle
This is my revival
And now my only rival
On another high note
Think I've broken my code
Just a couple typos

Lost in a fairy tale
I know that life gets very stale
Now I can breathe underwater
My son and daughter
Won't know this empty shell
These bones won't bury well but I'll cope
And I won't say fare thee well
I'm just gon' leave you all behind
I'm sick of hiding from me
My very self

Lost in a fairy tale
I know that life gets very stale
Now I can breathe underwater
My son and daughter
Won't know this empty shell
These bones won't bury well but I'll cope
And I won't say fare thee well
I'm just gon' leave you all behind
I'm sick of hiding from me
My very self