Won't Go Back

I still think you think of me as the one who drinks too much
The one who does what they want in the end and doesn't really think too much
Not someone who has this pain, done some things that they regret
But tell me, can we all forgive if we truly can't forget? 'Cause, uh
Every time I mess up, well you think I'm playing dress-up
Like I don't wanna be who I have become, I need to fess up
I don't know, I don't know what's really left to say
How can we look forward to tomorrow when you see me through the eyes of yesterday?
Damn

Feelings that's inside me
Won't let them divide me
I wish I could hide me
I don't show, don't show
But so you are certain
I'm pulling back the curtain
There is no reversing
I won't go, I won't go back

I still think you think of me as the one who lied to you
And all the bullshit in the past, the things that I would still try to do
And all the things that made you nervous, traits that made you feel so worthless
Are still there, and they can't wait just to rise about the surface, but
I could never blame you
I would never shame you
I know that it's actions
That are gonna change you
But it's been years since you cried them tears
I don't know what's left to say
But how can we look forward to tomorrow when you see me through the eyes of yesterday?
And uh

Feelings that's inside me
Won't let them divide me
I wish I could hide me
I don't show, don't show
But so you are certain
I'm pulling back the curtain
There is no reversing
I won't go, I won't go back
(Won't, won't, won't go back)
(Won't, won't, won't go back)

I don't know what's left to say, or what
Dues that I have left to pay, but you
Treat me like it's yesterday
And I just wanna move on, but
I don't know what's left to say, or what
Dues that I have left to pay, but you
Treat me like it's yesterday
Like you don't wanna move on, nah