How Did I Get Here?

How did I get here?
And why the hell did it take this long?
I buried a best friend
Inside my trash can you left outdoors
And you dropped me in the mailbox
My face-paint still left on
And you accused I never loved you
I could say nothing to change your mind

Charlie, Charlie, Charlie
My smile has become empty
Heard you've been looking for me
Come on, kid, you know where I would go
See, lately, lately, lastly
I would love for you to ask me
Where the line between my pen and mind's at war
And tell most the truth you know

My voice is a hatchet
It's forgotten how to whisper soft
My mind is a bucket
And it captures the rain
Sinking through the ceiling landing on the rooftops
You told me you were filled up with love
I said, "You've lost it"
You said a mess of errors
You know not what it costs yet
But I know, I know, I know

Charlie, Charlie, Charlie
My smile has become lazy
I heard you've been looking for me
Come on, kid, you know where I would go
See, lately, lately, lastly
I would love for you to ask me
Where the line between my pen and mind's at war
And tell most the truth you know

Said, "I've lost it all"
I watched them burn all the pictures of good pain on the beaches
And oh, if this is rock bottom, then I say, "Goddamn, the view from here is breathtaking"
Oh, oh, oh

Charlie, Charlie, Charlie
My smile has become lazy
I Heard you've been looking for me
Come on, kid, you know where I would go
See, lately, lately, lastly
I would love for you to ask me
Where the line between my pen and mind's at war
And tell most the truth you know