In The End (Remix) (RIP Chester Bennington)

I find it hard for me to follow my dreams 'cause I get caught up in the drama 'till it's harder to breathe
I'm staring right at my reflection and it's not even me
I got these voices in my head and I can't silence their screams
Just haunting my dreams I wonder if it's only myself
But as I take a look around I see nobody else
Can't talk about it to my homies 'cause my homies won't help
They'll act like they give a fuck but they don't know how it felt
So I just keep acting like it's all okay, this bottled pain has got me feeling hollow again
Everyday I wake up and it's just making me stressed
I take a deep breath, it's not me, maybe it's them
I don't wanna crack a smile, so I'm cracking a bottle
Look past for the sorrow, I know won't be happy tomorrow
That's fine, all that really matter to me is right now
So if you're looking for me I'm at home with the lights out
I'm still finding ways for me to deal with the pain
It makes me wonder if they care if they don't see me again
Nobody wants to hear about so I keep it contained
It takes a lot of late nights for me to see through the rain
Because

I'm not myself, I'm not myself, I'm not myself, anymore
I'm not myself, I'm not myself, I'm not myself, anymore

Back in school I was one of the cool kids
Now I'm the quiet type and I'm ready to lose it
I'm sick of hoping for better, man, it's only excuses
When did it start happenin'? I never would choose this
We all human and we all feel emotion but mine are stronger than others and so it's harder to cope with, it's causing commotion
This weed got me coughing and choking, I'm on this boat all alone and I ain't got shit to row with
I'm lost in the moment, I'm trynna find a way to explain it
I'm waiting so patient, these hangovers making me crazy
I'm having dreams of me doing things that I'd never do
Am I in Hell cause this ain't Heaven can't I find out the truth?
There's a part of my brain that I wish I could remove
If you were me you'd probably lie to you too
I over think then over drink when I ain't got shit to do
I'm sprawled out across the coach and I'm not gonna move
Because

I'm not myself, I'm not myself, I'm not myself, anymore
I'm not myself, I'm not myself, I'm not myself, anymore
Anymore

Everyday there's new pain inflicted, and when I'm drunk I'm convinced one day you'll get it
But you don't, so in the morning I deal with the disappointment
Another day, another search for enjoyment
It's annoying but I made this bed for me to sleep in
I see everybody else on the shore when I'm in the deep end
I can't breathe, it's a disease, it's a weakness
I'm staring at this bottle full of pills like "I need this"

I'm not myself, I'm not myself, I'm not myself, anymore
I'm not myself, I'm not myself, I'm not myself, anymore
Anymore...