Loyalty

Yeah-yeah-yeah-yeah
Yeah-yeah-yeah-yeah
Yeah-yeah-yeah-yeah
Yeah-yeah-yeah, yeah

So much on my mind, you know it's hard to sleep
Addicted to this money, yeah it's hard to leave
People only see what they wanna see
Watch them all fall like they're autumn leaves
These streets run red in the rain
Same color as blood in my veins
Say you love me but won't look me in the face
Just loyalty, that's all it takes

That's really all it takes
You can't look me in the eyes, you just walk away
The cost of fame is grim, it's been hard to face
I contemplate my sins when it's dark, I pray
My heart's been playing tricks, I've been lost for days
I got this pain within and it haunts my brain
I start to think that this is the part I change
But then I take a look around and it's all the same, I can't
Breathe properly, all that I need's honesty
Please stop it, it's haunting my dreams constantly
Voices in my head keep talking, I scream audibly
I feel awful, please give me a peace offering
I know I don't look the same and it's been a while
Guess I musta changed, I'm a train when I get withdrawal
Anxiety driven, I been within my thoughts
Deadlier than lines of cocaine mixed with fentanol
Just the thought of it all give me stomach aches
A runaway slave to this rage that I fucking hate
A ton of fake shit in my life I don't wanna face
Fucking A it ain't really shit but another day
I been tryna find peace in the darkness
I've still gotta dig deep through my hardships
Blacked out drunk, fell asleep on the carpet
And woke up in a room full of demons and martians, Merk

So much on my mind, you know it's hard to sleep
Addicted to this money, yeah it's hard to leave
People only see what they wanna see
Watch them all fall like they're autumn leaves
These streets run red in the rain
Same color as blood in my veins
Say you love me but won't look me in the face
Just loyalty, that's all it takes

Every day just keep getting worse
Every day I just keep getting burned
Won't be the last and it won't be the first
This game is disgusting, I'm sick and disturbed
Mixing my words with this liquor in church
I drown in my sorrow so nothing is hurt
Leave me alone, ain't nothing to curb
Just me and my thoughts and this bottle for my nerves
I really had enough these days
Where the loyalty and trust these days?
Everybody fake, everybody two-faced
So I gotta be a wolf in this world full of snakes
Motors are the same, getting old in my age
Writing all my sins on the corner of the page
Hope things will change and our bonds won't break
So we're broke in the cage just a rose on a grave
Nothing can fix all the cuts in my youth
Trust me I tried all the drugs and the booze
Trusted a few but no one was true
Lie to my face like I'm some kind of fool
Look at me now, look I'm actually jaded
Call me a brother, we're actually strangers
Tryna move on but my passing degrade us
Spending my time always masking my anger

So much on my mind, you know it's hard to sleep
Addicted to this money, yeah it's hard to leave
People only see what they wanna see
Watch them all fall like they're autumn leaves
These streets run red in the rain
Same color as blood in my veins
Say you love me but won't look me in the face
Just loyalty, that's all it takes