Fourfaced

(album: Secrets - 2020)

Looking out for fakes, cleaning out my garden, mow the grass
I been (Wells), yeah, smoking away my pain and smoke my
Haha
Helix Tears
Yeah

Back to the talking, I'm fighting, I'm tired
Think I had enough, I might just retire
Can't trust your words 'cause I know you're a liar
Toss in my body to prolong the fire
Tryna clean up your act, you tryna clean up your trail
Tryna wake up from this dream 'cause it doesn't feel real
You don't even need a weapon, use your words to kill
Why don't you just tell the truth? Why won't you let it spill?
Wanna lie for what? I just don't understand
Tired of giving fucks, all according to your plan
Used my trust and didn't say "Sorry"
Lies you said sent chills through my body
Play with my trust like a game, like Atari
Tryna get better but I'm fucking hardly
A friend or foe, I don't even know
Weren't there for me in my lows
Talk to the spirits and ghosts
Are you my real friend or no?
I already knew you'd switch up from the start
My anxiety is shooting up, it's shooting up the charts
Can't forget your fucking face because you left such a big mark
I've been smoking on this gas and feeling woozy, seeing stars
Don't give a fuck what you say
I don't wish you fucking death but I just hope you decay
These thoughts that go through my brain
Because of your actions, I won't be the same
I'm trying, I'm trying, I've been tryna change
It's hard to get rid of this, escape this pain
I cover my ears, don't wanna hear what you're saying
I try to erase you but you left a stain

Hard to describe how I'm feeling in words
Your image is fading, it's starting to blur
I hope that it gets better, doesn't get worse
I can't trust a soul 'cause I might end up hurt
I'm trying to find myself, I'm on a search
I'm close to the summit, I'm close to the perch
How you gonna say you need me but leave my side
But I shoulda seen it coming, shoulda picked up the signs
Can't face the truth, I'd rather face the lies
Hold in my tears with all my might
Put my soul into my song's all night
Say you my friend but you not in the slight
I know how this feeling goes
To be at this low
Know you're not alone