If Only I Loved Myself

(album: Sad Girls Club - 2018)

Down to make it work and do whatever it takes
If it means holding together our familas at steak
See I don't see myself without you honestly I never have
Ever since the day I met you, always dreaded you'd depart
But now we find ourselves still working in this stupid situation
Asking me, why do I stay? I ask you the same question
I put up with all your troubles, but you keep doing lo mismo
Lo mismo te perdono, rezandole a Jesucristo
I used to sit and pray, that he never took you de mi lado
Now I say it's okay, if it's better yo me aguanto
Cause you keep on hurting me, when you act a certain modo
But then, you hold me tight se me pasa y te perdono

If only my heart could let you go and never miss you
If only I didn't get these feelings when I kissed you
Maybe I could let you go a little easier
But damn baby boy without you I became crazier
I tried to love myself and I tried to be strong
But without you a mi lado everything was going wrong
And I hit rock bottom and I couldn't stop crying
Damn, I never wanna go back, to that so I keep trying

I know that this is bad but it's hard to let you go
It would kill me if I saw you with somebody else you know
I'm possessive shit I've always wanted you all to myself
I can't picture you away, so like this I rather stay
But a part of me who knows, we ain't good for each other
Love, it shouldn't feel like this, every other bitter trago
Numb the pain. Cause I love you way too deep
Such a shame I should be stronger. But with you I become easy
When I look at you I fall in love and think about the positives
All the good times that we have but not the obvious
Don't wanna lose it all, I don't wanna end up sola
Don't want nobody else, no quiero yo otra pinche boda, solo a ti

If only my heart could let you go and never miss you
If only I didn't get these feelings when I kissed you
Maybe I could let you go a little easier
But damn baby boy without you I became crazier
I tried to love myself and I tried to be strong
But without you a mi lado everything was going wrong
And I hit rock bottom and I couldn't stop crying
Damn, I never wanna go back, to that so I keep trying

It's hard to be the one trying to keep it all together
I wish you never told me that your love would last forever
I hate you for making me believe I was the only one
You played me for a fool when you made them a priority
The way they probably laughed behind my back, knowing everything
The way you said you love me but your word wasn't anything
Yet I'm still trying and you're crying "sorry baby"
And although I don't believe you I still stay because I'm crazy
I know that I should leave, but keep finding excuses
To make it work cause baby I'm too tired for this new shit
Que boy hacer contigo mijo, I don't know the rest
Keep trying to play the part but our loves a fucking mess