Nightmare

(album: Destiny: The Collection - 2019)

Every day that I wake up
I wake up in a nightmare
Every day that I wake up
I can never see quite clear
When I look at my surroundings
And everybody still doubts me
I wanna live to hear a crowd sing
All my lyrics so loudly
I miss the time when we would all get together
I guess it's fine, but I really wish that we were better
Real talk, sipping drinks without all the pressure
Now everybody needs to think about posting whatever
And people ask how I'm doing, I've never been better
That's really not a conversation I'm willing to enter
How come we all continue forcing out all this pressure?
I'm just sick of these opinions and all of these lectures

I need my space now
So I can feel nothing
I live this nightmare
So I can feel something
I do what I love
And hope you will love me
I face this nightmare
No, I am not running

I'm scared of being rich
I'm scared of being poor
I'm scared of being lonely
But I'm scared of being bored
Sometimes I get really angry
And I don't know why
Sometimes I really do hate me
Can't even pick my own side, yeah
What is even going on?
Why the hell do I even write songs?
What the hell am I doing here, man?
I guess I don't understand a thing, damn
Yeah, or maybe ignorance is bliss
Yo, I'd rather land in the abyss
And be aware of what I missed
Especially if I quit
Yeah, they say that hell is your last day
When you see what you could've became
That day would drive me insane
So I intend on staying my lane
Yeah, I picked a path and I picked the pain
Yeah, I want it bad, that won't ever change
Yeah, sometimes I'm mad, sometimes I'm okay
Yeah, I know I'll have what I want someday

I need my space now
So I can feel nothing
I live this nightmare
So I can feel something
I do what I love
And hope you will love me
I face this nightmare
No, I am not running

And it's hard to be okay
When everything has changed
Yeah, it's hard to be okay
When I can see everything
The best part of everyone's day
Is on my iPhone, on display
No matter what I do, can't get away
This isn't healthy, I don't feel the same
Yo, and destiny is a weird thing
Yeah, 'cause it's easier to believe
Yeah, that everything is out of your hands
It's part of a plan so there ain't no need to worry
Uh, don't let your vision be blurry
Yeah, lock in to your journey
Yo, and you can start real early
You can be thirteen or you could be thirty
Uh, but it's your life to live, yeah
Yeah, so what you got to give, huh?
Uh, you better get after it
Don't you dare quit, don't you dare kid
You got dreams? Then you're like me
So try like me, so fight like me
Take a hold of your life and thrive like me
You could put the nightmares to sleep like me