Stay Alive

(album: Hell City - 2009)

When your standing at the edge of a cliff,
And you got somebody that you love
Standing behind you,
Telling you to jump.
And you finally do it.
That person is just as much in the wrong as you are,
But I survived.

It's the calm before the storm
I know where you are everytime I close my eyes
I'm leaving you for now
But I know where you are
I'm starting a brand new life

I don't know why,
But I swallowed it still.
This whole bottle of pills
Oh what a Hollywood thrill,
And yeah it got me so ill.
Just when I thought it would kill,
I made it out alive and climbed this impossible hill.

I was tied up to this hospital bed,
When i just wanted to be dead.
I don't give about what you said.
With hickeys all on your neck.
Who the hell taught you about respect?
Did you tell them I'm running outta breath?

While I'm laying dead on the desk,
You can burn in hell with the rest,
But I don't wish that upon you.
I never wanted to harm you.
I want to hate you,
But you know that its hard to.
Like a fool I fell in love
From the moment I saw you,
But you almost killed me you bitch
I fucking hope that it haunts you.

Calling superman a bitch,
Is my only kryptonite.
Yeah I'll tell you man
Some bitche's throat is getting slit tonight.
I'm too fucking sick to die.
Get it right.
Nix is fly.
This is why.
I'ma fight to stay alive.

It's the calm before the storm
I know where you are everytime I close my eyes
I'm leaving you for now
But I know where you are
I'm starting a brand new life

I just drink my problems away.
When I wake up they all remain.
Then it hits me hard in the face
Its getting harder every day,
So I walk away with barely any motivation.
There's something wrong with this
God-forsaken rode that I'm taking.

Sometimes I just wanna buy me a hand pistol.
Running out shooting at randoms like a damn schitzo,
But I'm sittin here with a pad and a pencil.
I'm ripping my own hair out,
Grabing it up by the fistful.

Yeah you fucking pussies think that you can scare me now.
Scare me how?
Try to kill me.
I can't even kill myself.
Yeah you better believe me because.
I already tried.
Already died.
Came back to life a motherfucking Jesus Christ.

Got a heart of steel and I'm hard to kill.
Ain't gonna stop till I got a deal.
When I get that I'ma want a mill.
I wont disappear like a Copperfield.
So you see me climbing going straight to the top,
I'm lighting up the sky and I ain't gonna stop.

It's the calm before the storm.
I know where you are everytime I close my eyes.
I'm leaving you for now,
But I know where you are.
I'm starting a brand new life.

So I know what I want.
I want it all.

We've made our mistakes.
We needed to change.
We needed to break,
And even though
It takes a part of me [2x]

But I wont ever do this again,
To any one I love
Anyone I love. [2x]

I'm sorry for what I've done.
I want it all.
It's the calm before the storm.