Just Things

(album: AMPT - 2019)

Last night
It started with shots and new fights
Last night
I didn't think we'd make it out all right

I wake up feeling vacant
But when you're here it's suffocation
From myself
You feel like medication
And I keep taking you back to my house

I feel you
When you're not here
You're like a ghost
I hope you don't disappear
'Cause I need you
To keep fighting my fears
Away

I can't heal
If you won't leave
They all do once they get to me
The things I do
The things I've done
Baby, they're just things

Tonight
I'll try to stay alive
I'll fight
I'll try and keep my darkness inside

I feel you
When you're not here
You're like a ghost
I hope you don't disappear
'Cause I need you
To keep fighting my fears
Away

Everyone I love I seem to bury alive
I'm sorry, I get nervous when you stare in my eyes
Every word isn't enough and I barely survive
And I hate that you believe me when I say that I'm fine
I'm a work of art
I'm a piece of work
[?] all the fucking people who've hurt me
I tell myself I didn't deserve it
But it's hard to believe the word of someone you think is worthless
I start to fill the walls like boxes
And turned off the lights in everyone of my closets
Tonight I didn't mean to go and open them all
Ran out of space so I started kicking holes in the walls
I don't what's wrong with me
Think every God damn thing's fucking wrong with me
You say you see nothing wrong with me
When I feel like I'm burning so obviously

Tonight
I'll try to stay alive
I'll fight
I'll try and keep my darkness inside

I feel you
When you're not here
You're like a ghost
I hope you don't disappear
'Cause I need you
To keep fighting my fears
Away