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(album: The Ryan Oakes Project III - 2015)

I'm talking do you pay attention?
Then attention is building, I'm building aggression
I'm asking these questions, you keep me guessing
I guess I'll stress until your breath a confession
You never mentioned the fact you run and react
The second I told you I love you but nothing above you
No, you should've kept me intact but you let me collapsed
What happened to hope I'm sitting here broke
Like everything I've been living a joke
How can I cope when I need you the most
I won't be okay but I won't be sore by you
Damn that shits sad I'm thinking about everything we could've had
You promise to fight through the bad now look we are at
I guess I'll go and pack my bags

I still feel hopeless and broken
I'm hoping you reconsider the fate you delivered
I'm bitter and I want that option back open
I wrote and I've spoken and you haven't notice
My feeling were stolen and now I'm here choking
Up tears I've been crying up potions and my eyes been swollen
While your close ass mind didn't try to open up
You let that love mix with that lust
I've bought lies and repay trust
Lost myself and became us
See I was invested I felt protected when I was with you
I felt I was perfection now I'm neglected I'm still trying
Obsessing to get over you as a lesson
I'm broke man...

You couldn't relate
You never could see all the fucked up shit that's happened to me
I've tried and tried just happen to be
Yet another female fasten to me
I wasn't always this way
I wasn't always in pain now ill just sit and pray that it will go away
I feel like I'm in my grave but I'm sick of hearing you upset
Asking me, "Ryan why did you play with me?"
I won't clean this mess there no point where you'll be hating me
I'm sorry for the room you settled in and love you made with me just unfortunately out of service