I'm Fine

(album: Millennial Meltdown - 2019)

Time is flying, I'd be lying if I said it's fine
But when I turn the pages I've been aging like I'm wine
Off to the races, different places shaping my design
They said I need to stop, I dropped the baggage and blew through the signs
Afraid that I'm not living I might work myself to death
But if I stop the work the reaper's hands around my neck
Tried to take a long shot, I ain't stupid, it's a stretch
Never tried to draw me, now everybody looking sketch
Yeah, well I guess that's how it goes
I walk a road full of ghosts
And broken dreams and the bones
Keep high, I'll land as I go
It's getting thicker and cold
Shit, I just hope that I can find the way home

I wish that I could just rewind
Let it go and turn back time
And leave all of the stress behind
I just wanna run away
Don't wanna go another day
Where I'm lying to myself
I'm fine
I'm telling myself all the time
Ignoring all the warning signs
I can feel it in my chest
Now I'm choking on my breath
I'll keep lying to myself
I'm fine

My family across the country, I
Got a girl but where I'm at it's 6 and where she at it's 9
Distance pushed the love that's been existent to a distant time
I tried to get a jump in but ballistics been resistant
Fine, I'll fight another year, while I'm wiping all these tears
In a place where I don't think that I'll survive another here
I've been blacking out on weekends hoping I can smother fear
Under the weather, funny how it's just an endless summer here

I wish that I could just rewind
Let it go and turn back time
And leave all of the stress behind
I just wanna run away
Don't wanna go another day
Where I'm lying to myself
I'm fine
I'm telling myself all the time
Ignoring all the warning signs
I can feel it in my chest
Now I'm choking on my breath
I'll keep lying to myself
I'm fine

Please, never let me fade away
I may be far but don't you ever stay away
I promise that I'll never let our love decay
Just promise me I won't disintegrate!

(Rewind)
Let it go and turn back time
And leave all of the stress behind
I just wanna run away
Don't wanna go another day
Where I'm lying to myself
I'm fine
I'm telling myself all the time
Ignoring all the warning signs
I can feel it in my chest
Now I'm choking on my breath
I'll keep lying to myself
I'm fine