Disconnected

(album: The Cinematic Future - 2020)

Out on a limb here
Just letting this year pass
Every second crawling
With no help from you
It's all a blur when
I get the feeling that
Everyone is bullshit
So I must be too
I'm undeserving
Of this old house of cards
Trust me, I will find
A quick way to lose
Stuck with the fear of
Living a better life
It's easy to feel safe
When there's nothing to prove

Set me on fire
Throw me away
I'd rather feel this than nothing
I know how to be afraid
Call me a liar
Make me feel small
I feel like this world should break me
But nothing changes after all
I'll never be perfect
But neither will you
In words left unspoken
We've buried the truth
No room left to breathe here
Pressed under the knife
I know I deserve the silence
Of a disconnected life

Just for example
Say you forget me
To start over apart
And rebuild something new
It sounds familiar
Endings begin again
Each mistake I'm learning
A lesson from you
You know the scope of
My inadequacies
Between the lies
You acknowledge I'm here
I'll take the fall for
The faults of who we are
Give me all the blame
When I give in to fear

Set me on fire
Throw me away
I'd rather feel this than nothing
I know how to be afraid
Call me a liar
Make me feel small
I feel like this world should break me
But nothing changes after all
I'll never be perfect
But neither will you
In words left unspoken
We've buried the truth
No room left to breathe here
Pressed under the knife
I know I deserve the silence
Of a disconnected life

Crowded out
Yet alone
In this house
Not a home
I can't find the will to settle
In your eyes
I see pain
Not quite mine
But the same
You can't help but try to meddle
I've been sleepwalking again
Mindlessly searched for the end
What's in my head, and can I rest it?
I'm disconnected from you
My efforts leaving me bruised
Am I loved, or am I desperate?

Set me on fire
Throw me away
I'd rather feel this than nothing
I know how to be afraid
Call me a liar
Make me feel small
I feel like this world should break me
But nothing changes after all
I'll never be perfect
But neither will you
In words left unspoken
We've buried the truth
No room left to breathe here
Pressed under the knife
I know I deserve the silence
Of a disconnected life