My Life, Pt. II

(album: In Case We Never Speak Again - 2019)

Be careful what you ask for

If you looked in my life, you could see what I see
If you looked in my life, you could see what I see
If you looked in my life, you could see what I see
If you looked in my life, you could see what I see

Blessings, what the hell is that we stressing
Ain't no food around this bitch, my daddy took an exit
Momma double-shiftin still feel like we got nothing
I can't sleep cause the roof leak
And water drip inside this fucking bucket
Either starving or you thugging, or selling dope we was 13
Boy dropped outta school and started hustling
My dawg schooled me to these stealing cars I ain't wanna touch it
But the way them hoes kept laughing at my shoes I was like fuck it
So now we on some shit, we tip-toeing when we roll up
Backing niggas cars out driveways like a tow truck
Hit the nawf side cause the chop shop gon' give us more bucks
And them same hoes that was laughing
At my shoes now they gon' fuck
Blindfolded in the fast lane, we can't slow up
We on the news now, auto-theft division starting to know us
The walls was closing in, them clear skies turn to grey
See that's the part about the streets
That they don't warn you when you play
Them hating niggas killed my dawg, a bitch set em up
Ain't leave the house for 3 days, my pillow case was wet as fuck
When you young, you can't fathom that they never coming back
Your baby boy gone, how the fuck I tell his momma that
My soul numb, they gave my bro a dub and closed the case
When that devil go to work, nigga it's hard to hold your faith
Ghetto dealers bad ends, but this the cards we chose to play
We ain't worried about tomorrow
Hope they don't take our soul today nigga
This my life

If you looked in my life, you could see what I see
If you looked in my life, you could see what I see
If you looked in my life, you could see what I see
If you looked in my life, you could see what I see

I'm screaming out to you lord, it's your long-lost child
I know I strayed off, been gone for a while now
Please don't turn that devil to me
You say "Ask and you will receive"
Father forgive me I'm lost hoe ass devil got me under his wing
Every time I try to come, he always intervenes
Strike a flame deep in my brain, got me thinking bout killing
When at first, I was thinking unchain
Like a nigga schizophrenic
One minute I'm cool, and then I'm acting a fool
Can't understand it I'm manic shit, so close to going insane
Lord please if you don't ease this pain, at least stop the rain
Pouring down hail storm lately
Heart torn, got me blinder than a new born baby
Smoke at least 2 or 3 packs of Newports daily
My body done
Lord if you don't come this cancer gonna take me away
Sound weak? Well nigga you come fade it
I done lost so many partners now, how I ain't crazy
But I ain't know imma need ya, no I didn't non believer
Mind wicked
I done witnessed some of the sickest evils done to people
Shit I committed sins I can't believe forgiven either
And I believe in Jesus, but I'm still scared of sleeping
Dreaming bout these same bitch ass demons every night
Tryna kill me I really feel it, I be fighting for my life
And right before I, die
Can't wanna see this shit