In My Feelings

(album: Diary Of A Lost Child - 2020)

(JD on the track)
I can't lie
Lately I ain't been feeling myself
I'm on mars right now
Woah-oah

Looked at a picture of [?] like damn, I really miss him
Ran up my money but still ain't happy, like, what I'm missing?
I guess they blinded by the diamonds, the fame, and millions
Crossed by the ones I called my [?]
Heart hurt so much, I can't explain the feeling, yeah
Who would ever knew these been the project building
Why have to keep it a thousand, I keep it a billion
I damn near take you to three houses, don't make me a real one

I sip cough syrup to ease the problems and pain that I'm feeling
All out the roof of that Impala, like, "Father, forgive me"
Due to the fact 'bout my lil' partner, thirty clips gets emptied
All on my own, I ain't have no father, only in the fifth grade
[?] she'll be the one to take a Xan'
I wasn't even old enough for to leave the house and go hang with my friends
Next thing you know before I the leave the house, I gotta tuck my FN
Starting kicking doors, I had to take the street route to help granddad meet ends
Clutching on the poles, it was me and Leeky, don't try to load up suspense
Send [?] for all them breaking the ends
I was in a hold cell, super cold, just need my matt, pad, and pen
You was on the basketball court when I was writing flows in juvenile pen
Started smoking ports soon as they done let me out when I was turning sixteen
I would have to sleep on dope boy Reeboks, then had a dope boy dream
What's the chances you make it out? You might get knocked at eighteen
Either rich or poor, that shit's for sure, my feelings still be the same

Looked at a picture of [?] like damn, I really miss him
Ran up my money but still ain't happy, like, what I'm missing?
I guess they blinded by the diamonds, the fame, and millions
Crossed by the ones I called my [?]
Heart hurt so much, I can't explain the feeling, yeah
Who would ever knew these been the project building
Why have to keep it a thousand, I keep it a billion
I damn near take you to three houses, don't make me a real one

And I say I know
It'll be the people sitting right close
Tell me where you was, it was me and Luwop [?]
People change up for no reason, that's how life goes
Different disagreements, same old sides though
Boy, it hurt your heart when you seen [?] on the obituary
Seems like the one settled on me really hate that I made it
I really came from the muddy mud of the muddy, yeah
Pour up a cup of that bubbly [?]
Past life I lived, thought it was so marvelous
Made it through the storm and I know they hate, that shit so obvious
My heart so torn, do anything to see my [?] yeah
Tell me where you was, it was me and Luwop [?]
I swear last night I went to sleep inside some dope boy Reeboks
This [?] we in the trenches having dope boy dreams
Can't forget to mention that lil' homie took the C-R-I-P route
My heart got broken and stolen and shattered all in one day
[?] 'til today

Looked at a picture of [?] like damn, I really miss him
Ran up my money but still ain't happy, like, what I'm missing?
I guess they blinded by the diamonds, the fame, and millions
Crossed by the ones I called my [?]
Heart hurt so much, I can't explain the feeling, yeah
Who would ever knew these been the project building
Why have to keep it a thousand, I keep it a billion
I damn near take you to three houses, don't make me a real one