Am I High Rn

(album: A Letter To My Younger Self - 2020)

I think the back door creaks
I think the sun burned down
I think this garden speaks
Or am I high right now?
I think the sky caved in
I think your heart's possessed
I see white flags waving
Or am I just obsessed?

Or am I paranoid of being myself?
Is it my brain overworking itself?
Are these rumors in my head really true?
Is someone watching all the things that we do?
Or am I high right now?
Am I high right now?
Yeah-yeah

Am I trippin'? Am I sippin'? Am I high right now?
The delusion and confusion got me hella tripping now
I need likes to validate me, I need pills to chill me out
I need sex to feel in power, I need booze to wash it down
I need something for the side effects, something for the comedown
Something for the trauma, something just to come around
I'm riddled with anxiety and crippling depression
Gotta dig my own grave just to learn my lesson
I feel like I think too much
You only hit me up when you drink too much
And I don't wanna be your human Xanax bar
You're talking 'bout forever, shit's way too far
And I don't wanna be another one night stand
But I don't wanna be nobody's life plan
If you're scared, go to church; if you're shook, meditate
If you're hurt, just vibe; if you're mad, walk away
What you think?

Or am I paranoid of being myself? (Being myself)
Is it my brain overworking itself? (Working itself)
Are these rumors in my head really true? (Really true)
Is someone watching all the things that we do?
Or am I high right now?
Am I high right now?
Or am I high right now?

Or am I high right now?
(You only hit me up when you drink too much)
Or am I high right now?