Toxic

(album: Put A Crown On It - 2019)

I wish I didn't feel like the biggest piece of shit
Choking on raw emotions I'm holding deep inside of me
Feeling so lonely, over my shoulder there she is
So far apart but I could feel her breathing right behind me
'Cause we ain't even fucking, starting to accept it
We just say I love you, ain't no hugging, ain't no pecking
The minute that we said it, how much longer can we sit here
Watching Modern Family, popping Xannies drinking all the whiskey
Till we're screaming and we're arguing, mainly 'cause we're wasted
Neighbors call the cops again, I don't really blame them
But they don't know about us, both of us are crazy
We get into bed and laughing 'bout the stupid shit that they said

People hate that we're together, saying that we're toxic
Like all we do is argue with each other and get upset

So I told her baby if, someone say if we get
Separated from each other, then it may be best
They don't fully understand the way our brains connect
Until the day we're dead, I'll be in love with a toxic relationship
Oh, I'm in love with a toxic relationship
I'm in love with a toxic relationship
I'm in love with a toxic relationship

I'm so upset with you, I get pissed and call you names
You mistake it for hatred and say I mentally abuse you
I just don't feel I could kill you if you tried to leave
Or at least give me some head, instead you do it when you choose to
We ain't even fucking, there ain't no discussion
We just go get drunk and ruin another family function
Your momma looks disgusted and probably wants to jump in
'Cause the police came and cuffed us up for causing a disruption, drop one
We go to dinner with family and friends, we still ordering shots for the table to drink
They know it's only a matter of minutes before we start fighting, that train's never late
Usually arguments start with a joke that's involving the character traits that we hate
Guzzling bottles of Crown like it's water, it's hard for our marriage to carry the weight
You leaving? Wait, I'll help you pack
You hit me in the face, people held me back
You kicked me out? Oh bitch, I'll bounce
Don't be calling me asking me where the hell I'm at
Well guess who's back on your broken bed
With my shirt torn up and my cellphone cracked
People don't know why we don't just break up
Roll my eyes when they tell me that it's toxic

People hate that we're together, saying that we're toxic
Like all we do is argue with each other and get upset

So I told her baby if, someone say if we get
Separated from each other, then it may be best
They don't fully understand the way our brains connect
Until the day we're dead, I'll be in love with a toxic relationship
Oh, I'm in love with a toxic relationship
I'm in love with a toxic relationship
I'm in love with a toxic relationship