What If I (Still Feel)

(album: Surfacing - 2019)

We're fine for weekends
Sex is good all summer
Just to keep it our secret
Back to our regularly scheduled social programming
I guess we'll still be friends
Friendship is not punishment
Well, that's what I'm told, right?
The sex ain't the goal, right?
But these molly pops are pleasing
They take us far away
Giving us a reason
To be like, "Everything's good"
Even though we know better
We stay close 'til daylight
And keep it up all night
We're digging deep for dear life
Dear life

What if I, what if I-I, still feel?
What if I, what if I-I, still feel?

I race to chase paper 'cause
These cops won't stop killing us
And never mind my feelings cause
The weak ones get fed to the lions
I need 'em now more than ever (Ever)
I'm under all sorts of pressure (Pressure)
That feels good from a distance
Hm, but close up it's all business
Oh God, oh God, oh God
Why are you uninvolved?
I want to shut you off?
Oh God, oh God

What if I, what if I-I, still feel?
What if I, what if I-I, still feel?

If I'm made in his image, purposely envisioned
I should have some sense of omniscience or wisdom
Why do I still feel like I'm always complaining?
Feels so fucking real but I'm convinced I'm faking
Put me in this body, I'm inside a stranger
I'm not in control here, I'm still in the manger
Some nights I still feel like, take me to my Maker
I would ask him, "Why put us in so much danger?"

So what if I, so what if I-I, still feel? (Yeah)
So what if I, so what if I-I, still feel? (Yeah)

Steady as it goes, steady as it goes
It goes
Steady as it goes, steady as it goes
It goes
Steady as it goes, steady as it goes
It goes
Steady as it goes, steady as it goes