Lost Cause

(album: SECRETS - 2018)

I took a lot to get to twenty seven
My knees are weak but I'm still standing
I wasn't meant for making it
But I'm not the type to call it quits
Colly but trying to be clean
Breaking but still in one piece
Hanging on, hanging on
But I feel my grip slipping

We win some but lose most
And close calls keep us close
This life is wearing thin
It's eating at my skin
We can't keep reflecting
Just keep on pressing
On and on and on
'Til we finally belong

I can't seem to get past all my problems
I try my best but never solve them
I was never one for making it
And I think it's finally sinking in
Colly and not coming clean
Breaking and losing each piece
Falling down, falling down
No one's reaching out to catch me

What's it gonna take for me to find my way
I can't keep struggling to always finish in last place
Am I just wasting all my time
Chasing the wrong life
I just wanna be, I just need to be
Free from the judgements
And all those against me
Free from opinions they've built
On who I should be
Can you even hear me
I'm fucking screaming
I just wanna be heard
Won't someone save me
Bring me to safety

We win some but lose most
And close calls keep us close
This life is wearing thin
It's eating at my skin
We can't keep reflecting
Just keep on pressing
On and on and on
'Til we finally belong

And I've given everything, given everything
But I gain nothing, gain nothing
Yeah I'm not giving in, not giving in
My knees are weak but I'm still standing

Everyone tells me to stay strong
But I've got nothing to hold on
Everyone tells me to stay strong
But I've got nothing to hold on
Everyone tells me to stay strong
But I've got nothing

Lately my head is a mess where anxiety nests
I feel invested in stress like it's all I have left
Every failure's a debt and they're up to my neck
I'm fucking drowning in doubt and there's no swimming out

Everyone tells me to stay strong
But I've got nothing to hold on
Everyone tells me to stay strong
But I've got nothing