Apologies In Order

(album: The Mind Of A Saint - 2023)

To my dearest next door with a heart even prettier than your eyes
And the baggage that I done added to them in recent times
I'm obliged to take my responsibilities in stride
Or my pride will be my obituary's design
'75 climbing through your window on the side
My disguise was knowing what I was put here to defy
Whole time, I'm staring at the rules the world afforded me
Paling in comparison to you and what you thought of me
My attention unfortunately
Went from how you walk to how I can walk this quarter piece
Weed money's cool 'til they cap and gown honored me
Grad school was powder work, green Jansport with $40,000 worth
Life comes at you fast when you're bright enough to speed read
Ignored how I needed you, thinking that you needed me
Only child syndrome so I'm full of me
Loving on a brick replaced loving how you look at me
Then I saw what it took from me
First one through the door should always have a key
But I had 20 more in the trunk gift wrapped for me, it seemed like automatically
You became a mirror and I chose to stay away like "fuck all of this staring back at me"
Then you scurried away to a Maurice
Like you staring him down could wipe away how you saw me
Then you lit up a flame and it became how you support me
Serving you like a guest list, word to your mama necklace
I swear this throne became warmer than I projected
You rang the bell but let Wanda in unexpected
And I neglected to keep up with my protection, I was buried in my blessings
But ain't a bag big enough to pay me out to take the time
To think that you'd be in the cross fire of this aim of mine
As sweet as your name, all the melodies that came alive
Drove you to lay me out to say goodbye
And so now essentially that handful of bullets you sent to me
Was back to back with the one that made your father a memory
Ironic ain't it, he loaded his, he loaded yours like "if you got it, aim it"
A cop's daughter ain't one to play with
And there I was playing with you, hopping out windows
Driving out to Texas showed me just far a $10 goes
I started to bring a few in the trunk with me to Odessa
Where me visiting you could've funded me even better
But me in front of you was enough to lead me wherever
And I couldn't make this more about me than it's already been
Aspirations getting impatient and screaming let me in
Let me vent, I don't do this much but just let me vent
Waving hi with all this blood on my hands, let me rinse
Leaning on what's left of me to fix the mess that I made
Trusting in Tanosse's, all this pussy on my plate, look at far that I came
I'm worth enough to put 100 thou' on my frame
What more could I say? You should be here with me
My child is on the way but yo you should be Veronique
Nothing got in the way but I used to be scared to dream, used to be scared to sleep
So to summarize it all, I was all at the the root of it
Whether or not I ever really knew the shit, so...

Apologies in order
If ain't nothing else for us
No love lost 'til I lost love on the corner
No love lost 'til I lost love on the corner
No love lost 'til I saw love was a goner
No love lost 'til I saw love was a goner

Apologies in order
If ain't nothing else for us
No love lost 'til I lost love on the corner
No love lost 'til I lost love on the corner
No love lost 'til I saw love was a goner

Apologies in order
If ain't nothing else for us
No love lost 'til I lost love on the corner
No love lost 'til I lost love on the corner
No love lost 'til I saw love was a goner

Apologies in order