Blood In My Eyes

(album: Anti-Hero - 2017)

Here we go
Yo, never trust nobody that'd get you bodied
To have your mommy trying to identify the body
Same ones say they body with they set rowdy
Same ones testifying, they'll make you sorry
I embody the cold and sweat and live by it
We get violent, ready to start a big riot
For my goons on the Percocet and fish diet
Full clique quick to roll up on the vic quiet
I write it for ya'll breaking night in the bog
I sit and write these bars and my nightmare's hard
For me to see straight, when I got blood in my eyes
Blood moon color iris, my retina's shine
And plus all I see around me is butter and knives
So if the devil is alive then what a surprise
I'm still paranoid, looking out the front of my ride
I'm too humble to cry but too hungry to die

Got demons stuck up inside I can't free (I can't free)
I wanna keep touch with a God I can't reach (I can't reach)
When I look up to the skies it can't be (It can't be)
Trying to stare with blood in my eyes, I can't see (I can't see)

I'm staring off this with paranoia and I'm close to the edge
Too many close calls, I'm supposed to be dead
So was it God's will or just a rosery said [?]
By my late grandmother who was always in bed
Is it the insticts that were in sync with the gin drink
In my cup, I don't give a fuck all I can think
Is I can feel their eyes full of envy
The lies of a rival that's liable to end me
I will not die 'cause survival is in me
I got a tribe that'll ride to defend me
I got a nine that I'll dump 'til it's empty
Inside of ya eye through ya cut if you tempt me
I'm in the front to the entry
Where the comeback kids would eventually
Have to rise against lords with their eyes against Gods against the depths of the hell where they sent me [?]

Got demons stuck up inside I can't free (I can't free)
I wanna keep touch with a God I can't reach (I can't reach)
When I look up to the skies it can't be (It can't be)
Trying to stare with blood in my eyes, I can't see (I can't see)

Aspirations for rap, ain't one of 'em died
If ya'll could have seen the bags under my eyes
And took a listen, hear my stomach rumble inside
I swear I never been on a bumpier ride
I would look my son in his eyes and tear up just thinking
If one day of hunger he died
Many nights I would mumble to God, he told me
There's a thin line between being humble and pride
At some point you gotta succumb to one side
No in between son, you gotta come to one side
I felt like that kid on the verge of suicide
Who just held a gun and he cried
Hand quivering trying to put the gun in my eyes
Or trying to hit a target with the sun in my eyes
Like, you gonna push everything you love to the side
It's a damn shame, but fuck it my brother you tried

Got demons stuck up inside I can't free (I can't free)
I wanna keep touch with a God I can't reach (I can't reach)
When I look up to the skies it can't be (It can't be)
Trying to stare with blood in my eyes, I can't see (I can't see)