The Cold War

(album: St. Leonards - 2018)

You say it all with an ease
Like you don't think it means nothing to me
Like I'm not a creature who dwells on the cuts
Who pulls them back open just to fill 'em all up

With concrete, sinking slow
I'm drunk in Sienna, not that you'd ever know
The Cold War was just me
In the harsh light of day feels like it's come to take me again

All your words were too sweet
So the chess pieces fell at your feet
And I scraped all my skin on the rough bricks at home
To hide all the evidence so they'd never know

What I was, what I knew
You were down in the dumps, clutching footholds and lumps
The Cold War sways in time
She builds, and she falls on the slate tiled halls again

I am filled with regret
Decisions I made that I didn't even get
And you told me you loved me, we rehearsed on the way
You said I had two choices, you can kill me or stay

So I caved, saved the day
Manipulated into someone that I hate today
The Cold War was just me
Deployed until now that I've come to claim me again

Push up on me
Make me guilty
Make me feel like
I pushed the knife
Thought I buried
Thought I covered
Now you're on me
Like a bug on a light

Push up on me
Make me guilty
Make me feel like
I pushed the knife
Thought I buried
Thought I covered
Now you're on me
Like a bug on a light

And I'm watching from my satellites
And I can see you changing and you're alright
You're alright

Push up on me
Make me guilty
Make me feel like
I pushed the knife
Thought I buried
Thought I covered
Now you're on me
Like a bug on a light

And I'm watching from my satellites
And I can see you changing and you're alright