Remainder

(album: Giant Sings The Blues - 2015)

Had the feeling that we were due for bad news
Six months away before we knew
That no good was ever coming through
I burnt down the house for you
Took my shit out of your room
Kissed my dog goodbye
"I guess it's time to move."

My things on the lawn in the heat
September stayed so warm and your sweat tasted sweet
It's the last time I held you complete
The last family on the street
The only time we meet you're not alone

All things in mind, I couldn't be better
Than times that I've denied myself my happiness
All things considered, I come out the remainder
Left alone without my whole
So where'd you go?

Now I stay indoors on my throne
And I talk to myself
Pray that you haven't flown
And I'll reap what I have sown
Because I'm just a fucked up kid
Who dreams of dying alone

Moving in I'm miserable from rings and beds I took for granted
Feels like I am barely here
Seven years that never happened
Giving up on loving things
Except maybe for my new family
Hold myself up for display:
"Everything just brings me down today."