I'm Scared To Lose You

(album: Ever Blossom - 2021)

If I could throw a stone against your home
So hard that it would knock it down
On nights I wish you left me all alone
I'd sneak out of the kitchen door
And run into the rain and thunderstorm
Where sorrow doesn't make a sound
Won't cover my tears, just let them fall
Fuck a feeling, I just let 'em drown

Fuck a feeling, I just let 'em drown
Fuck a feeling, I just let 'em drown

And now I think I know why they put bars
On all the hotel windows
The ground I see below don't seem too far
Let's see how far down it goes
Deep into a hole with my guitar
Where sorrow is the only sound
Fill it with a hose to flood you out
Fuck a feeling, I just let 'em drown

Fuck a feeling, I just let 'em drown
Fuck a feeling, I just let 'em drown

Don't drown
I've been drinking, I've been thinking about ya
Don't drown
I'm still sinking, let that sink in, I'm breaking down
Shit happens but we won't run
All the drugs can't even get me numb
Don't drown
Might be the drinks but
Why won't you let me love you, love you, love you?

California Dreaming on my mind
Down below the nimbus clouds
Grey just like the bags under my eyes
Fuck a feeling, I just let 'em drown

Fuck a feeling, I just let 'em drown
Fuck a feeling, I just let 'em drown

Don't drown
I've been drinking, I've been thinking about ya
Don't drown
I'm still sinking, let that sink in, I'm breaking down
Shit happens but we won't run
All the drugs can't even get me numb
Don't drown
Might be the drinks but
Why won't you let me love you, love you, love you?

'Cause I'm scared to lose you
To the drugs, or the booze, or the ledge
I'm scared to lose you
The love of my life since we were kids

'Cause I'm scared to lose you
To the drugs, or the booze, or the ledge
I'm scared to lose you
The love of my life since we were kids

Don't drown
I've been drinking, I've been thinking about ya
Don't drown
I'm still sinking, let that sink in, I'm breaking down
Shit happens but we won't run
All the drugs can't even get me numb
Don't drown
Might be the drinks but
Why won't you let me love you, love you, love you?