Ugly

(album: Crushed - 2022)

I wasn't ugly
Until you didn't want me
So don't leave me with this noise inside my mind
It's eating me alive
'Cause you filled the vacant spaces
I fortified the walls around us
But this home is not a home without you here
I wasn't empty
Until I saw you leaving

And there's a part of you that loved me even if you hate it
And there's a part of me that loved you at your worst
And there's a part of you that's terrified that you'll never feel anything
But you can find a girl and make it work

Oh you weren't worried
Until you saw them watching
Oh they've been sanding down the edges
And I barely even recognize your face
Yeah, I saw you at the cafe
And you're never looking happy
So don't lie to me and tell me you're okay
'Cause you don't hate me
You just can't face yourself

There's a part of you that loved me even if you hate it
And there's a part of me that loved you at your worst
And there's a part of you that's terrified that you'll never feel anything
But you can find a girl and make it work

You were so callous in your selfish ideation
Oh yeah I pulled you from the ledge
And you gave Jesus all the credit
Every field that we ran through is devastated
All turned to parking lots and outlet malls
Just so people could feel steady

There's a part of you that loved me even if you hate it
And there's a part of me that loved you at your worst
And there's a part of you that's terrified that you'll never feel anything
But you can find a girl and make it work