Dead Instead

(album: Unlikely Prescription - 2021)

I wanna be happy
Like people in pictures
I see on the doctor walls
I wanna feel better
All by myself
Without the help of
Drugs or alcohol
I wanna be social
Kind and friendly
With great subjects to talk about
But when I come in contact
With others I'd rather
Just go and shut my mouth

I build these walls
To keep these things in line
It seems these walls'll
Lock me up in my mind
I build these walls
To help with my head
It seems these walls
Would rather have me dead instead

It's a struggle for me to try to exist inside a bubble
I'll admit I often stumble I'm no diff
Feel the pressure losing grip
Speak your mind or bite your lip
Either stand or take a sit
From the info that you get
No one knows of its legit

I don't really care anymore
I know it sounds selfish
But what am I helping it for
No one really cares anymore
I know it sounds helpless
I know it sounds helpless

I build these walls
To keep these things in line
It seems these walls'll
Lock me up in my mind
I build these walls
To help with my head
It seems these walls
Would rather have me dead instead

I wanna be happy
Like people in pictures
I see on the doctor walls
I wanna feel better
All by myself
Without the help of
Drugs or alcohol
I wanna be social
Kind and friendly
With great subjects to talk about
But when I come in contact
With others I'd rather
Just go and shut my mouth

I build these walls
To keep these things in line
It seems these walls'll
Lock me up in my mind
I build these walls
To help with my head
It seems these walls
Would rather have me dead instead
Have me dead instead
Have me dead instead

It seems these walls
Would rather have me dead instead