Heavier Every Time

(album: Songs Of Samhain, Vol. II - Haunted Record Player - 2021)

Watch me start a revolution in my mind set
I wanna take over the world but it ain't mine yet
They say that patience is a virtue
But squandered time and opportunity can hurt you
I need a clear view been looking with my eyes closed
For oh so many years I feel that all my minds blown
Like shitty speakers in the life whip with low and high pitch
Like ups and downs in lives you know all the times when I quit
Throwing in the towel just to pick the fucka up
The harder that I try it seems the deeper that the cut
Yo I got problems to weight a heavy mind and the thoughts weigh heavier every time

How many times do I have to say it though?
Always under never out of control
How many times must I repeat again?
I am invincible and no adversary will win
Against me
Resent me
Some of you people will never ever understand me
I got problems to weigh a heavy mind and the thoughts weigh heavier every time

Humanity is a stain that I disdain
I am on the rooftop rooting for the plague
When I am in my brain it's survival rate zero
Designed suicide the demise of a hero
Cast down the opposition
Seen it in a vision
The shepherd wears the same cloak as the mortician
Bow before the grave
Heed the call of the damned
Can I get a witness
The extinction of man

You see
Initially it wasn't meant to be predetermined
But now the serpents under beats
When the speech reversing
Beneath the surface it's like I'm tying a noose
About to sway steady
I can't refuse the truth
Them thoughts they weigh heavy
And most days I wish I couldn't think
Just stare emotionless
At a world filled with hopelessness
Share my condolences
To those who couldn't cope with the pressure
Those who have no goals
And those who show no effort
Go on forever like a broken record

How many times do I have to say it though?
Always under never out of control
How many times must I repeat again?
I am invincible and no adversary will win
Against me
Resent me
Some of you people will never ever understand me
I got problems to weigh a heavy mind and the thoughts weigh heavier every time

I tried and hide the fire
But it burns through
The ones you love always first to abuse you
The blunts they used to make me curse proof
But the drugs just don't work like they used to
But I digress my life is uphill at best
My thoughts their tied to anvils
There's a landfill in my chest
The devil on my shoulder is the only one left
I guess the angel was depressed
Said fuck it jumped to his death

Holy water couldn't bless me
Devil couldn't come and get me
If anyone else wanna test me
I'll crack your head like a Pepsi
Snipe em all like Wesley
Open em up like Sesame
Hole in the heart of my enemy
I told you this shit can go heavily

How many times do I have to say it though?
Always under never out of control
How many times must I repeat again?
I am invincible and no adversary will win
Against me
Resent me
Some of you people will never ever understand me
I got problems to weigh a heavy mind and the thoughts weigh heavier every time