self destructive

(album: anywhere else but here. - 2020)

Self-destructive tendencies that I have
Are killing me slowly but that's fine
I like the way it feels
Yeah, I, I like the way it feels
When I think that I'm leaving
And I hurt myself to prove that I'm human
Where did I go wrong this time?

If I don't wake up, I'm better off
I'll finally catch up on my sleep
I've been so lost, 3 AM thoughts
Are building a new home just for me
If I don't wake up, I'm better off
I'll finally catch up on my sleep
I've been so lost, 3 AM thoughts
Are building a new home just for me

Tell me I won't be this way forever
I can't do this for much longer
Does anyone give a fuck?
I don't think that's the case
I wanna be anywhere else but here
Lately, it's been getting hard to feel
But I'm getting used to it (I'm getting used to it)

If I don't wake up, I'm better off
I'll finally catch up on my sleep
I've been so lost, 3 AM thoughts
Are building a new home just for me

(If I don't wake up)
(If I don't wake up)

(If I don't wake-) Up, I'm better off
I'll finally catch up on my sleep
I've been so lost, 3 AM thoughts
Are building a new home just for me