Real Now

I've been going through some shit that's getting real now (yeah)
People dying all around me man I'm telling you this shit is getting real now (yeah)
Lost my grandma didn't know it can you tell me how that feel now? (yeah)
Got a message saying sorry for your loss I didn't know if it was real now
Praying that they got wrong number
Tell me how the fuck I gotta deal now

I was going thru the motions I was doing all my shit
Turning 20 in the city I was too focused to quit
Got on FaceTime with my granny and she told she was proud
One week later she was gone and now she up above the clouds
Never got the chance to tell that I loved her for her legacy
Everything she did and all she wanted was the best for me
Tell me why the good times always coming with the bad
Never thought I'd see the tears ever coming from my dad
I been on a mission ever since
Get it while I can
Everyday I gotta reminisce
Thinking bout the past
I been killing all these beats
I've been shitting on these rappers
I've been praying that I never gotta settle living average
Gotta buy my mom a crib
Gotta buy my dad a whip
Gotta buy my bro the world
Gotta get it while I live
I don't take no shit for granted cause I seen it come and go
I'ma take over the planet yeah you fuckers better know

I've been going through some shit that's getting real now (yeah)
People dying all around me man I'm telling you this shit is getting real now (yeah)
Lost my grandma didn't know it can you tell me how that feel now? (yeah)
Got a message saying sorry for your loss I didn't know if it was real now
Praying that they got wrong number
Tell me how the fuck I gotta deal now

I been battling these thoughts that been running through my mind
Tryna make my parents proud taking one step at a time
But nobody understands all the shit that I've been going thru
Working on the music while I'm studying in dental school
Thinking 'bout just dropping out and doing what I love
But I can't imagine leaving my whole family in the mud
But they never raised a coward I'ma finish what I started
I'ma juggle all this shit and keep on working at my hardest
I been going where my heart is yeah I know that I'm the smartest
Never think about the parties I been doing what my part is
I been battling the best
I'ma let God do the rest
I'm not getting any rest
Working till I got up next
Yea I know this shit ain't what it seems but I know I'm blessed
Every time that life is hard man I know that shit a test
They been tryna cut the weak only made it for the best
I just pray before I sleep and now I get what I request