OVERDOSE

(album: Dear Paranoia, Sincerely, Me - 2020)

I had a dream I went out
I overdosed on my doubt
Yeah, it was real, it was strange
Had nothing but doubt in my veins
I could feel all of the pain
Like when I'm awake that don't change
But it didn't seem to be bad
It kind of felt good not being sad

And when I wake up in the morning
I'll just keep on with ignoring
Everyday feel less important

Yeah, things feel better when I'm dreaming
I can leave things without leaving
Cut my wrists without the bleeding

I had a dream I went out
I overdosed on my doubt
Yeah, it was real, it was strange
Had nothing but doubt in my veins
I could feel all of the pain
Like when I'm awake that don't change
No, it didn't seem to be bad
It kinda felt good not being sad

It kinda felt good not being sad

I had a dream where I fell
And no one could hear when I'd yell
But I didn't seem to be scared
It kinda felt good with no one there

And when I wake up in the morning
Forty miles south of Portland
Everyday a bit more foreign

Yeah, things feel better when I'm dreaming
I can leave things without leaving
Cut my wrists without the bleeding

I had a dream I went out
I overdosed on my doubt
Yeah, it was real, it was strange
Had nothing but doubt in my veins
I could feel all of the pain
Like when I'm awake that don't change
No, it didn't seem to be bad
It kinda felt good not being sad

It kinda felt good not being sad

Would it even matter if I did
Five, four, three, two, one, I'm off the grid
Maybe they would think the knife had slipped,
But would it even matter if it did

Where'd my feelings go I think they hid
Cause when I shut my eyes, I can only see my eye lids
Thinking that there's something that I missed
But would it even matter if there is

I had a dream I went out
I overdosed on my doubt
Yeah, it was real, it was strange
Had nothing but doubt in my veins
I could feel all of the pain
Like when I'm awake that don't change
No, it didn't seem to be bad

It kinda felt good not being sad