What I Had In Mind

(album: Best Wishes - 2016)

What happens when your safe place leaves?
What happens when the one you trust won't hear your plea?
What happens when your daydreams end?
You lose all the comfort you'd invested in

I dream that someday I'll find the peace I need
It seems that my nightmares always end with these things
And I try to block it out, but I won't forget the fall

What happens when your lover's gone?
What happens when it don't go just the way you thought?
What happens when the mat's pulled out?
You're falling and you don't know how to face a crowd

What a shock, what a scare
Two nights ago I was holding your hand
What a crack, what a joke
Don't know if I should pat you on the back or watch you go

And I try to block it out, but I won't forget the fall

This is not what I had in mind when I told you I'd be by your side
No, this is not what I had in mind when I told you I would always try
No, this is not what I had meant when I asked you if you'd be my man
This is not what I had planned when I told you I'd be your woman

Oh no no, no no no
I wanted you so
My hope was strong but overpowered
By a boy whose faith was swallowed by his doubt